Thursday, December 27, 2012
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
This is how I'm broken
They say that some chemicals in my brain are not "balanced" corrected. But how can they know what the correct balance is for me. They don't poke a needle past my eye and take a sample to determine what the mix is like. Wouldn't it make sense to draw samples over the course of a few days or even weeks to get a really good sample set? Rate the mood and relate it to the samples? But science doesn't work that way, it seems. So how do we know what the real balance point is? Is it when I'm compliant, being a good consumer? Is it when I am happy all the time, regardless of how I feel? Is it when I don't make a ruckus anymore? Is it when I just sit and watch the world go by, not saying or thinking anything about it?
Or is when i learn to live with the imbalance....
Time for another pill.
Friday, December 07, 2012
Christmas would be so much nicer with...
...more time to enjoy it. The rush at work. The busy hobbies and the need for down time seems overwhelming me and take away my interest in developing any interest in the holidays. Why most it be so?I want to be full of joy. I want to be merry! Maybe these things are meant for those with lots of spare time or the wealth to not worry about paying the bills.
First world problems, I guess.